I was lying awake last night, not fretting about the 3000 words I have to write on the ethics of prenatal genetic diagnosis by next Wednesday, or the way my anticipated five and a half/six hours on the road on Sunday will probably end up closer to six and a half/scarily close to the cutoff. Really, I wasn't. It's just that the antibiotics make me a bit nauseous, my head still aches most of the time and the extra asthma stuff I have to have for the next few days makes my heart race a bit. Meh. It seems to be working though, so I'm sticking with it. But I digress.
I tried all the usual calming things as I lay there; I thought about my nice warm house and soft sheets and sweet daughter (she was asleep at the time) and my adorable husband (ditto), and all my other blessings.....and I still could not get my heart to slow down. It was a pest. I wanted to sleep. It occurred to me that listening to music might pass the time, so I got up and got my 1p0d. I snuggled down again and clicked it on
I love my 1p0d. I only ever listen to it when I'm running. I've chosen all the songs carefully so they cheer me up or rev me up or lift me up. They're my friends. I've spent a lot of time with those songs, feeling calm and strong, huffing and sweating, usually by myself, often in the dark when the lights are pretty or when the sun's coming up. Running with my music is a very good place to be.
And oh, my friends, my friends -
as I lay floating on my songs in the dark last night -
I was right back there. It was like magic. Each track took me to a place I know well - that running place, where I am calm and happy and peaceful and strong and sure of myself.
I love it there.
And my friends, my friends - on Sunday, I'll be there again.
More anon, peaceful grinners.
BTW if you're planning on being anywhere near the MCG around lunchtime on Sunday, email me and I'll give you the Spousal Unit's phone number. You can cheer me in!
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
Right back there
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7 much-appreciated comments:
yay!! glad you found your way back to your happy place. :-)
*sniff* this was lovely... you got this :-)
Michelle & I are down at Apollo Bay for GOW 100 - so we are not sure if we will be in any condition (or even be awake enough) to make it back to Fed Square to catch up with you and the crew on Sunday ...
Regardless, I know that you will have a great marathon - and when it gets tough (and it will at some stage) just think of your wonderful family & friends waiting for you at the end ....
Take care
EatEm
yes you will be there again on sunday!! I would totally plan on coming to MCG on Sunday except a) i'm not entirely sure what MCG is, and b) I'm short about $1200. But whatever! I was just out running and was seized by this HORRIBLE panic that your run was this PAST sunday. Mon Dieu! Is there an easy way to track you via phone on Sunday?? Btw, my first marathon took 6 1/2 hours and it was fun. (Sort of.) I HOPE YOU ARE RESTING!!!
Incase I dont get back to you, GOOD LUCK!!!!! You are amazing and lookin forward to hearing all the details. My co-worker also running has been battling a chest infection and tonsillitis all week so you're probably in good company. Good luck again xx
You'll be there on Sunday. :)
Sending lots of good vibes - for health, for determination, for good weather, for lots of support along the way, for perseverance, for joy, for the FINISH.
I'll be thinking of you Alison. All the very best!
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