Where have I been? It's been nearly two weeks and really...I've been nowhere, done nothing. I feel as though I'm floating aimlessly, whilst simultaneously moving in ever-decreasing circles.
Will I ever be able to establish an exercise routine again? God I hope so. I feel sad and flabby and dispirited and a failure
How good is feeling strong? I remember it. I remember feeling motivated and organised and happy. I just can't quite work out how to get back there from here at the moment.
Isn't it funny how it's the idea of a daunting task that we fear rather than the task itself? Doubting your own ability to do something new is so tiring but it's hard to overcome until you actually get stuck into things... *slaps self on head for faffing on* that was a long-winded faux-philosphical way of saying, this sobriety thing isn't as hard as I expected. I've even managed an unaccompanied 300km round-trip with my mother-in-law without succumbing to the siren call of the port barrel. You can still sponsor me though. It hasn't been that easy. Just click here! You know you want to!
Will I ever get to go outside, by myself, for a pleasant sweat again?
Will my ankle ever get better?
Will I ever run again? I do so want to run again. I drive up the hill I used to steam up and I say to myself, I will do that again. I. WILL.
What will the physio say this afternoon?
Was buying this on ebay an over-reaction to a major blue with my dear Spousal Unit?
4 much-appreciated comments:
I am upset about having to stop running because of my back, so I know a bit how you feel.
I am thinking about diversifying.
Have you heard of crossfit?
That'll get you fit.
Cilla (at her brave new blog, chekkit out)
well, there's still time to take up drinking again :-) I know. Priorities!
Al, I am in complete awe of you for your dry July- I had to stay off the booze because of my liver and I STRUGGLED big time and it was my health at stake! Great work, I am impressed at your will. And your strong will is the thing that will get you back feeling strong when you are allowed to exercise again.
I have hit the pool with a vengance and have even been seen hiding behind very large body builders at the gym lately. Just do what you can do. And I love the t-shirt!
Sara
oh, what to say??? don't give up. If you need a plan, I can give you one. really.
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