it wasn't her, it was me

The party was fun: we caught up with the Spousal Unit's taekwondo friends whom we haven't seen for ages. It was also bad: the birthday girl is still hanging herself out to dry over a man who has never cared for her in the way that she wants, and never will (he has never said he does, or will, either). I said something to A that has probably destroyed our friendship. I'm very sad about that, but I just couldn't bear to be forced to collude in her self-deception any longer. I realised that I cannot deal with people I love asking me to lie to them about behaviour that is making them deeply unhappy. It's nothing to do with A. It was me being judgemental. Learning unflattering stuff about myself is never nice but *sigh* I couldn't see anything else to do.
LBTEPA and the Spousal Unit All Frocked Up

The lunch for my friend M went well, although I was very nervous and as always talked too much and mostly about myself. M's new man seems charming and very sweet. I'm happy for M :) She deserves some good luck.
We were a peaceful house after lunch - J snored in the living room watching car shows, I snoozed on the couch listening to the footy and Noddie slept in her bed. Later I took my overfed self out for a run, about 55min (about 9km). It was pretty dark, and windy, and my mp3 went flat so I was all alone with my breathing and the elements. When I got home my head and my heart were calm.

It's 2 weeks until the Shepparton half-marathon. I was going to do the Sandy Point half in 3 weeks but realised that's Father's Day, and it's a bit unfair to make that day all about me LOL. I'm not really prepared for Shep; that doesn't matter because it's part of my training program for the Melbourne Half in October, but I'm still scared :(. Sometimes I can't remember why I do these things.
Speaking of honesty, it's well and truly time to stop BSing myself about how many wines I have been having during the week lately. Not whines, I don't think that number will fall LOL. Wine with dinner is just a habit. I can break habits (grumbles to self how unfair it is that I can't eat and drink anything I want all the time and not get fat and and and and......)
*Edit* THE PLAN: my lovely niece L has been good enought to agree to my smsing her every night with the number of glasses I've had. I just need to be accountable for a while. Goal Mon-Thu = 0. Thanks L you are a legend (HUGS)

NICE THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED LATELY
It was 3 degrees but so sunny on the station this morning!
We used the best dinner set at lunch and it all looked really pretty.
Noddie stayed overnight at Nanny and Pa's on Saturday so J and I slept in until 8am!
I wore an outfit to the party that I haven't been able to fit into since my first marriage, and I received lots of compliments :)
Noddie called out "I love you" as I walked up to the station.
My footy team won :)